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Woman Says She Became Addicted To Porn Aged 10 And She’s Finally Overcome It

A beauty blogger has opened up to fans about her past addiction to watching porn – a secret she lived with for a decade – and how it all began when she was just 10-years-old. 

Courtney Daniella Boateng was just 10-years-old when she found that she was more interested in watching porn than Disney movies and cartoons. After school, she would go to her bedroom and use the computer to indulge in her addiction and thanks to a lack of parental restrictions, she found that she could access pretty much anything she desired.

The beauty entrepreneur and Cambridge graduate shared a confessional video on YouTube back in April, in which she explained how it was time for her to open up about her addiction, so people could understand that it’s okay to struggle with such unwanted needs.

The 23-year-old captioned the video: “I wanted to be honest about how I can overcame my 10 year addiction and tell you the story of my journey with it.

“If this is something you want to be overcome, you can. There were so many times I thought I just could never do it, but I did and all I can say is my faith in Jesus helped me the most.”

Courtney, from north London, said after a decade of battling her addiction she has finally managed to overcome it and now feels positive about her future.

The influencer claims that her addiction began when she was aged 10. Instead of watching programmes on the TV, she found that she had access to much more on the internet – plus, there weren’t any parental restrictions set up.

Having heard about porn, she said that she was eager but ashamed of her burning questions. Yet eventually, she managed to type her questions into Google and find out information on the ‘forbidden’ topic.

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She said: “When it came to online pornography, I think there was just a day where I was like what is sex and where do you go to watch anything regarding sex?

“I had a curious mind, I was intrigued by this forbidden topic which they had started to introduce in my year six class which is sex education.

“I went to the internet and I found porn and this is where the whole situation began.”

She continued: “I think for me there was an intrigue that nothing was held back from me online. I had so many questions about what it was all about and watching pornography was satisfying that for me because nobody else was giving me the fullness of this thing that the world seemed completely crazed by.

“There was also a sense of escapism, at 10 years old I can definitely, wholeheartedly say now, I was very depressed.

“During that time there was a lot on me, there was a lot that I had experienced and a lot that I had seen and at 10-years-old I didn’t really know how to process my emotions, but all I knew at that age was that I felt sad pretty much all the time.

“Whilst I was watching this pornography, I was so captivated by what I was watching that I forgot anything, I forgot about hurt and trauma, I forgot about all of it, it was an escape.

“I would spend hours just consuming pornography because it would help me forget. It became a medication for me. If I’m feeling stressed or anxious, this is where I go. In that moment this felt better than anything else that happened in my day.”

Courtney claims that her addiction lasted until she was 20-years-old and that it wasn’t until she was 18 that she realised that her obsession with watching porn was becoming a problem.

She said that at night she would find herself in an “internal battle” with a little voice in her head encouraging her to watch porn, even though she didn’t want to or even feel like doing it deep down.

She recalled: “It was to the point I was in cold sweats.

“It was crazy, I just felt like I was going mad, I was tearing myself apart because I just couldn’t tell myself no. I was stuck in this cycle of addiction.”

Courtney also started to realise that her addiction to porn was having an effect on her relationships too. She found that she would constantly be comparing her partners to porn stars and they weren’t living up to such high expectations.

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She told The Sun: “The sex didn’t live up to my unrealistic expectations – it was awkward, messy and boring. There was no passion, and if he wasn’t going to provide the same satisfaction that porn did, why bother?”

It was at this point that the beauty blogger realised something had to change. She said that she realised it was time to have some deep and difficult discussions with herself. However, she also found that her faith became more comforting than ever.

Courtney said: “I had to acknowledge that this was an addiction, this wasn’t something I was doing casually, this wasn’t going to go away overnight.

“I had to heal the things that drove me there in the first place.”

To battle her addiction, she realised that she would have to make changes in everyday life. To do so,  Courtney had to cut out the music she listened to and the people she followed on social media, as she found that sex was everywhere she looked.

She explained: “The unfortunate thing is sex is everywhere.

“There are so many things that will remind you of sex. You make one wrong swipe on your Twitter feed and you’re watching a whole clip of pornography. A song can take you back to a certain place and cause you to remember a feeling.”

She added: “I also did the practical things, like putting a child lock on my phone, on certain websites, it gave me a moment more to think ‘do I actually want to do this?'”

In addition to these steps, Courtney decided to look at porn from a different angle. She said that she threw herself into researching porn and she found out there were many problems within the industry.  For example, she discovered that many women were being exploited and through this, found watching it far less enjoyable.

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So far, Courtney’s confessional video has had over 880,000 views and she has since said that she’s received an overwhelmingly supportive response.

Whilst many have come forward and have admitted they’ve had a similar problem with porn, others told her it was brilliant how she fought off such a difficult addiction.

Courtney said that she now feels like she has a massive support group and is happy she can now look forward to focusing on her career, spending time with family and enjoying life without her obsession with porn interfering.

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